Forbbiden ♥

2012-01-26T03:02:00.002+08:00

Thanks for proving me

tat no one else other then my family

can tolerate my temper

i will remember it in mind

so next time i will never do the same mistake again

i can only be happy when i am outside

and when i want to be angry or sad

i had to do it at home

maybe i was wrong from the start

i always thought u wont leave me alone

thanks for proving me wrong again

2012-01-23T04:13:00.002+08:00

Its not a happy Chinese new year

it is just Chinese new year

sometimes i just need a shoulder to cry on

is that too much to ask for

2012-01-06T04:21:00.003+08:00

2nd time using phone to blog (:

today im a happy girl

although im not feeling well

and as usual im late today :/

anyway bf bought me to watch

moive mission impossible

at vivo gold class awesome man!!!

i didnt know and it is ex but worth it

we ate at a awesome cake shop too!!

and i get to eat my craving foundue!!!

how can i not love today expect for the sick part

lastly i slept almost the whole journey

in the car when bf is driving

thanks bf for not waking me up

and everything tat happen today (:

i don nid to have all this everyday

jus one mth one time go out tgt

i am content

iloveyou<3

2012-01-05T02:54:00.002+08:00

2012 i am still struggling

no we are still struggling

trying to know each other better

trying to give in

making the effort to change

trying to fit in to one another

trying so hard to make things work

eventually one will grow tired and stop trying

sometimes i feel tat we are all tired

but nobody wants to let it go

maybe sometimes i got the urge to let go

but no i never ever want to

i don know if u notice it but i feel tat i have change

and if u don know i am worst last time

its habit of me tat will never change

im not someone who will stay by my phone 24/7

im not a sweet talker

im not someone who likes to talk on phone

im not as strong as i seems to

im not someone who go to bed early

ok there will lots more

im jus not prefect

so pls don expect much from me

i need someone who understand my silence

i need someone who can be there for me

i need someone who can make me happy

okies im asking for too much

i want nothing for 2012

my resolution for every year is to sleep

sleep away everything every trouble every problems

如果我不在乎了，
你说的任何话，
做的任何事，
都触动不了我的神经，
伤痛就是一种麻木，
伤害就是一种冷漠，再多的伤，
我都会轻轻地对你说：没关系，
我可以尘封所有的回忆，想想以后的路怎么走，
可是我做不到，我竟然是那么的在乎你。

2012-01-01T04:25:00.003+08:00

First day of 2012 and

first time I blog through phone

i don knw why but i guess

i really nid to learn not to

expect too much...

like any other night i have

tears flowing through

i don knw why but i didnt wan too

i guess sometimes i jus miss you

and i get a litte emotional today

becos like any other couples

at the last day of 2011 and first day of 2012

i jus wan to be wif u a little longer

although there is nothing special

well i guess im weak afterall...

lets not hope much for 2012

2011-12-31T04:14:00.012+08:00

Last day of 2011!!!

Should complete the post tat i owe my bf

from 18 dec till now hehe

HAPPY 5 mths to my baby <3

and i finally grant my bf wish on 18dec

by wearing dress and take neoprint wif him (:

hehe cute right! hope he enjoyed that day!

ever since we gt tgt we seldom have time

we don stick tgt as often like the past

sometime i cant get use to it and gets sad

but i know he is always trying to make me feel better <3

and this is the first year im not ending it single!!!

although we r both working but still im happy

hopefully we celebrate after work if we r nt tired (:

Best gift of 2011: Patrick Chua 蔡汉勇 <3

从现在开始，你只许对我一个人好；

要宠我，不能骗我；

答应我的每一件事情，你都要做到；

对我讲的每一句话都要是真心。

不许骗我、骂我，要关心我；

别人欺负我时，你要在第一时间出来帮我；

我开心时，你要陪我开心；

我不开心时，你要哄我开心；

永远都要觉得我是最漂亮的；

梦里你也要见到我；在你心里只有我

By movie: 河东狮吼

2011-12-17T02:48:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder who really comes to my blog?

anyway life has been changing much very much..

in less than 20 days it will be 2012

how fast can tat be 1 year is just pass like tat

this year so much has happen and too much changes

sometimes i find it hard to catch up the pace too

i find it hard to fathom things tat happen too

from the start of the year till today

things tat happen are not wad i expected at all

not a single thing was wad i thought will be

and this guy above use to be my best friend.

a colleague, a close friend and someone who

will always be there for me

never will i thought i ever will get tgt wif him

even though ppl ard us thinks we match alot

and i guess for himself he never thought of it too

you know i always i will never ever find someone better

who had made a impact in my life

and i guess he did

he did not replace wad someone did

but he did even better

and i doubt is hard to find someone like him

tat when u cry he cry wif u right

i remember tat there was this one night

tat he called and i was crying badly!

and this silly guy worried like hell

the only one tat i tell all my problems to

all my rantings and complain

i admit tat we are not going smoothly at times

we quarrel more often, have disagreements, misunderstanding,

mis-communication and trust issues

all this happens but no matter wad happen

im still glad tat he came to my life

i have no idea how far we could go

but no matter wad i hope this cute guy will be happy forever (:

and going go about my life

everything seems to change :(

everyone seems so busy wif their life

friends tat i use to talk to often

friends tat i use to hang out wif

friends tat i use to share problems wif

life goes on, i jus got to learn to move wif the flow right?

Still im grateful to all the ppl who came to my life

I just want to lead a simple life (:

2011-12-09T03:57:00.003+08:00

My very first post to my bf <3

thank you for the surprise today!

he bought me a gingerbread man tin

in replace of gingerbread man plush (:

and he bought it without me knowing

still bluff me go see then don wan buy for me

thank you for the Christmas present

stop spending money okies (:
iloveyou :*

2011-10-16T03:29:00.001+08:00

I don know how everything started

and i don know how everything will end....

我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流著眼淚默默地祈禱
希望你過得好

2011-06-19T17:58:00.003+08:00

I guess history is repeating again

and i think i have not learn my lesson
since it is not the first or second time
i know saying sorry does not
cure the pain i gave

and saying thank you does not mean
anything they have done for me
no words seem to be able to fit in

sometimes i find people around me contradictive
they ask me i nv thought be4 all the possibility
i will ans no why think so much
and then thing has happen
and i began to think alot
they ask me don think so much
so wtf do they wan from me
sometimes i find this true
most people ask thing not becos they care
but they are just curious
i don understand cant they jus mind their own business!
they discuss, they talk, they create problems
and then found out the truth
and say oh i knew it
so wth did they gain in the end
but i know it is not their fault
but i don think they are totally right too
sometimes i just find myself super contradictive too

i know it is hard or impossible to ignore someone u care

but im expecting ppl to do it

and all i know things will nv be the same anymore!!!

我想我已经习惯一个人生活

2011-06-07T04:27:00.004+08:00

First post in 2011, new background color

did not expect myself to hold on so long

i guess because i got awesome friends to keep me going on

but now I am finally turning to blog again

i think i really feels sucks inside
people say they understand

but do they really do?

no i don think so

do they know what i want
they always think my life is easy

and it always seems that i am at fault

like i am the one not putting in the effort

i know it is not totally their fault

as they are not me so they wound't fully understand me

i am so use to doing things my way

and i don like to explain it much why i did it

although i know someone told me be4

that if u did not want people to ask you

then u explain it first but it just not me

and so after keep for so long

i think i need to rant it all out here

no matter if anyone sees it

people who know me should know i am quitting school

yes i am quitting!!! and every single human will

keep bombard me with questions!

and truth is i do hate the school system

but i really like to study there

the reason for not staying is i know myself well

i cant survive there

i bloody hell have to work

imagine waking up at 6.30am

school till 3.30pm and rush for work

start work at 5pm and finish work at 12.30am

reach home at 1am and sleep at 2am
so how the fuck can i focus in class

and u people ask me not to work
so who the fuck want to support me

i don have good parents like other people

paying for their school fees and daily life

i am doing all this myself

and i am not complaining about it

i just need a single soul to understand it!
not that i am thick skin don wan ask them from money

but how am i suppose to ask them

when i know they themselves having difficulty

and always complaining they don have money

i know i am not poor and can support myself

but my problem is i want to financially support them

and thats what i cant do now
i know that studies it important

but i also know that when u cant meet your ends
thats when work is more important than anything

and i feel sucks for always sleeping in the day

and working in the night

i cant spend any moments with my friends

and i get so tired out that i neglected them

u know i do see their problems everyday

but i cant do anything

it really sucks a lot

sometimes i just don understand

why do we have to study so much since young

at the end of the day, it is just to get a good cert/ qualification

and the use of it is to get a easy better high paid job

but seriously sometimes i just don give a damn

all i want is a simple life not a luxury life

and please don pity me

because i don find my life miserable at all!

我真的觉得很无能为力

ps. idk since when u started to avoid me

2010-12-31T06:12:00.004+08:00

Its been a long long time since i updated my blog
there are a few times which i wanted to update
but didnt manage to get it done
anyway there is nothing much to update too
becos everyday is like a routine to me
jus wanted to complete this post be4 2010

Seriously life sucks but we still have to go on,
i find myself changing alot maybe thats the way it shd be
but i don't like the change in me
it is just so not me anymore
there are times i wanted to find back the old me
but it just seems so impossible

And sometimes i just wonder
who really understands me
i know alot of people KNOW ME
but do u really understand
how i feel deep down in my heart
Vulgarities seems to become part of my life
and im trying hard to control myself!!!

Life has been going down since 2007
or i shd i say the real life starts only at 2008
i use to be a daydreamer and nothing really matters
things i nid to think for last time:
- not to be late for sch
- hand in homework in time
- stay awake in class
- how to level up for my games
- how to use com secretly not being scolded until late night
and friend's problem is always my problem
that is wat a carefree life i have
and since don't knw which dog year
everything changes.....
failed my N level
no goal in life
stop schooling
start working
start schooling again
learn to juggle work and school tgt
family falls apart
and now i have fucking lot of things to think or even list out
so after goin through all this shit I CHANGED!!!

I have to learn everything myself
every single thing
- making decision
- taking up responsibility
- don't get bully outside, protect myself
and lots of things tat is nv taught in sch
that is reality!
Its hard for someone lazy like me
someone who doesn't like to talk
someone who doesn't like to think
someone who doesn't like to explain things
someone who only knows how to slp

I know i have become a very fuck up person
someone with a very serious attitude problem
but sorry i didnt want all this too
i always vent my anger on my family and friends
and they always make me feel gulity
becos they will never ever blame me
instead they will help me secretly
and i dun like it, not that i don't appreciate it
but i make myself feel like im weak
and i felt like it was me who was suppose to help them
but it went another why round
i just don't feel good but im learning to....

I use to say Trust.Understanding.Commuincation
but people close to me break their trust
and i just can't seems to understand somethings
when they say everything happen for a reason
and i just don't have the courage to communincate wif some people
they are just beyond my....
so how am i going to go by this three words
they are just simple words with great meanings
and im just learning it everyday

this shall be the last post for this year
i guess that is wat i bottled up for very long
maybe not all but still i want to say sorry
to those i hurt and thanks you who those
that are always there no matter what
u guys are like angels send by god (:
2010 i learn alot and made alot of mistakes
maybe i still don't have the courage
to face some problems but i will keep trying
and quoted from someone if u knw who
"2010 is gonna end. 2011 is gonna be a fresh new beginning."
Your life is not gonna restart just because it's a new year.
If you really wanna change, you could change right now, at anytime of the year
yeah i think it is quite true
and all i hope is not a better 2011
i just hope it will not get worse ^^

PS: I miss late night chats wif nerd and shy. They never failed to make me laugh (:

Justin Bieber - Down To Earth

I never thought that it be easy
Cause we both so distance now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how
No one has a solid answer
But just walking in the dark
And you can see the look on my face
It just tears me apart

So we fight (so we fight)
through the hurt (through the hurt)
And we cry and cry and cry and cry
And we live (and we live)
and we learn (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try

So its up to you and its up to me
That we meet in the middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
back down to earth

Momma you were always somewhere
And daddy I live out of town
So tell me how could I ever be normal somehow
You tell me this is for the best
So tell me why am I in tears, Whoa
So far away and now I just need you here

I felt so far away from where we used to be
Now we're standing and were do we go
When there's no road to get to your heart
Let's start over again

2010-08-26T02:10:00.001+08:00

我看見鏡子後面皺著眉的我
很孤單她有話想說
像天空不會永遠都是藍色的
有陰天你才會抬頭
走穿多少的巷弄
笑了哭了
有三四個人愛我

我想要一個亂了數字的時鐘
我想做一個完全相反的我
我在這個世界拼命些什麼
累死我

我有雙不聽任何命令的耳朵
去享受快樂加上自由的我
我要變成一顆透明的石頭
我不會動
也不會痛

像輪胎用了太久沒氣了所以
原諒我想消失幾週
每個人都在選好的軌道奔走
講真的我想要呼救
請看愛情的臉孔
美的醜的
幾千萬人都被愚弄了

我想做一個完全相反的我

2010-08-24T00:41:00.003+08:00

Hellos im back
all i want to say is
WHAT A JOKE HAHAHA.....

all i can say is maybe
and maybe none of the things change
but i changed....

我做很多事背后的意义并非你们想象

2010-06-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren’t meant to stay.
Sometimes, change may not be what we want.
Sometimes, change is exactly what we need.
And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you’ll ever have to do,
but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down
and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.
Sometimes, change is too much to bear.
But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.

I know i will~~~~

2010-06-17T01:05:00.004+08:00

I

KNOW

IT

IS

TIME

TO

UPDATE

MY

DEAD

BLOG

BUT

I

HAVE

NOTHING

IN

LIFE

TO

UPDATE

AT

ALL,

U

KNOW

WHY!?

BECAUSE

THERE

IS

A

DISTANCE

BETWEEN

US

AND

YES

I

MEAN

EVERYONE

AND

INCLUDING

ME

MYSELF

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

okies im talking crap again
due to lack of sleep recently

so im heading to bed now

GOOD NIGHT~~~~

2010-05-03T01:34:00.002+08:00

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TEO ZI HUI (:

and i wrote the 6th letter/ email
and i just send out the 5th and 6th =D
im so proud of myself lols
anyway im super tired this few days
i know im always tired lols
i still lagging behind studies
i want my 4 pointer back!!!
but its hard wif my lazy attiude -,-

That day u made my heart skip a beat (:

2010-04-30T02:08:00.002+08:00

Omg!!! im still awake!!!
i tell myself i will slp early today
and i failed to do it again =/
but i really was doing something
tat was on my mind for days
if u guys rem i blog be4 abt
writing 4 letters/email to my friends
and i jus completed the 5th one (:
of cos it is different ppl but i guess
the contents are somehow same
but for different situation
i havent send it out yet maybe tml
there is alot of things running in my mind
but tats all for today

ROBOTS they have HEART too.

2010-04-22T01:45:00.003+08:00

累了吧?很努力让自己笑

可是不管在怎么努力都开心不起来

我想我现在需要他们

尽管我心情再怎么不好

他们都能让我脸上有笑容

I guess im tired?

I tried very hard to smile

but it seems like i just cant be happy

I need them now

those who can put a smile on my face
no matter how down im

2010-04-15T02:44:00.003+08:00

Ouch it hurts!!!!

NUMB~~~~

2010-03-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

had fun the past few weeks
count down 2 more days to exams
havent study at all =/
neglecting studies again
really losing interest =/
no motivation =.=

23 Feb
-reborn my hair
-went to watch moive (little big solider)
-wif 3besties and zhixuan (:

25th Feb
-meet up wif h4f (:
-went to tiong and have dinner
-back to gombak and slack

26th Feb
-meet up wif je ppl
-farewell dinner/supper for faris
-good luck for ur trip to brunei (:

27th Feb
-went to body world and science center
-wif lindy, jolene, bernard, arron
-HAD LOTS OF FUN!!! it is a mus go (:

28th Feb
-steamboat at grandma hus (:

2nd March
-watch being human at vivo
-wif h4f, 3besties and zhixuan (:

3rd March
-sch and PS wif lindy and jolene
-had carls j but i cant finish =/
-jolene finish it up for me (:
-home wif 3 besties!!!
-one "STUDY" one SLP lols
-played webcam wif lindy tgt =D

4th March
-sch and sembawang shopping centre
-first time there!!!!
-had aston wif lindy and jolene (:
-cant finish and jolene help me again =D
-after tat work at cinema
-alice in wonderland!!!

there are too much photos
so im not goin to upload it
go facebook if u wan to c

goin to be real busy soon
although it is holidays
guys im busy on this dates
11,12,13,15,18,19,20,21,22
i wonder how to tell my manager
so many days i cant work =/
maybe after i done wif my stuffs
i will go help out......

after so long....my eyebrown is
acting up again. for straight 3 days
making me so uncomfortable
sense something wrong
im preparing for the worse.....

Li Jiu Zhe - Making Love Out Of Nothing At All

I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie

I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream

And I know just where to touch you
I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose

And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules and then I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game

But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out nothing at all

(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love)
Out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all
(Making love) out of nothing at all

Every time I see you all the rays of the sun are all
Streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight

The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn it to a beacon burning endlessly bright

I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing till I give it to you

I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle,
I can make all the stadiums rock

I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
And I can make you every promise that has ever been made
And I can make all your demons be gone

But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really wanna see me crawl
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love out of nothing at all

2010-02-26T01:58:00.006+08:00

Meet up wif h4f today :)

as usual didnt go sch =/

i found out i have a problem

and its getting serious

i tend to get into my thoughts too deeply

till dun knw wats happening ard me

cant recognise ppl i knw on the streets

especially when im listening to music

so ppl next time if u find tat im

not concentrating talking wif u

wak me up and if u call me on the streets

and i didnt ans u then u mus

come infront of me and wave hahas

I MUS STOP LIVING IN MY OWN WORLD!!!!!

Bellow is something to share. ;)

Look for the best in Everybody - A beautiul advice
If you wait long enough,
people will surprise and impress you.
When you're frustrated with people ,
when they've made you angry,
it just may be because you haven't
given them enough time.
Sometimes this took great patience even years.
But in the end, people will show you their good side.
Almost everybody has a good side.
Just keep waiting. It will come out.

A bad apology is worse than no apology.
Apologies are not pass/fail.
Halfhearted or insincere apology are often
worse than not apologizing at all because
recipients find them insulting.
If you've done something wrong in your dealings
with another person, it's as if there's an infection in
your relationship. An good apology is like antibotic;
a bad apology is like rubbing salt in the wound.

Never give up.
Brick walls are there for a reason.
And once you get over them,
even if someone has practically had to
throw you over, it can be helpful
to others to tell them how you did it.

Tell the truth.

People lie for lots of reasons,

often because it seems like a way

to get what they want with less effort.

but like many short-term strategies,

it's ineffective long-term. You run into

people again later, and they remember you lied to them.

and they tell lots of other people about it.

that's what amazes me about lying.

Most people who had told a lie think

they got away with it......when in fact, they didnt.

All quoted from "The Last Lecture"

find it quite interesting and meaningful :)

VERON U NEED TO WAKE UP!!!! ZZZzzzz......

2010-02-21T05:25:00.001+08:00

Time to update~~~~
im back to LAZY mode
or shd i say im always LAZY
how i hope someone could
jus give one tight slap to wake me up
but i definitely hate you after that hahas

this year CNY thought of working
but still i didnt cos i found i cant
visiting family is still the piroty
imagine u only c them once a year
and u go work!!! really deserve a beating!!
lols. same routine every year, expect for last year.
as usual 2nd day of CNY is always best =D
only last year cos didnt went there visitng
tat means 2 years c one time @_@
didnt stay long too =(((( cos alot of ppl
through out the CNY i was sweating!!!
haiz need to wait till next year ler =/
dun understand sg is so small but
u always meet people u knw on the streets!?
even if u meet people u knw, its not who
u wan to meet!!?? seriously dun UNDERSTAND!!

another question in my mind.
from the 1st day of CNY
how can a parent call its child not
to call/greet them infront of their friends!?
SERIOUSLY DUN UNDERSTAND!!!
u didnt know how hurt it will be
lucky it didnt happen on me
but still i felt sad and angry for them
seriously if u were a stranger to me
i definitely throw a punch to ur face!!!

anyway did i mention i didnt went sch since~~~
since last friday OMG!!! im rotting again!!
wasting my life away =/
not totally cos i went to work
okies enough of i wonder why!? lols
be4 i start anything emo here.......

如果连他都会骗你
那以后还有谁可以相信

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They wont stop 'til they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's world war III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
Money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV's
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something

something is wrong
Is everybody going Crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

2010-02-01T03:29:00.006+08:00

it is 3.45am now
this means tat IM SLPING LATE AGAIN
it is so diffcult to slp early
or shd i say maintain slping early everyday

OMG I WAN THIS!!!!
but it dun sell single piece =/
1 set cost $150+ DAMM IT!!! so ex

anyway just watch finish

家書 - 我在1949, 等你 (Letter 1949)

to me it is quite a nice show

so everybody go watch (:

quoted frm the show
"什么是真正的幸福
就是心中不再有恨了
尤其是
对于爱我的人
和我爱的人"

ytd was really a tough night for me

2010-01-27T03:15:00.006+08:00

Hey guys do u knw i rem
wat i wan to blog tis time round lols
actually no, i think hard for10mins
and finally rem it....

22/01/10
last friday meet up wif h4f
and i was late for 1hr!!!!
A THOUSANDS OF APOLOGIZE TO THEM
very sorry cos i fall asleep
went to our usual place vivocity
dinner at superdog as usual
and catch the moive tooth fairy
didnt really wan watch it at first
but turn out to be quite a nice show
lastly of cos is slacking at skypark

23/01/10
sat suppose to work but lazy
both nana and xin ask me out
i really didnt know which to choose
wanted to go tgt but.....
in the end cancel and i decide to stay at hm
cos bro came over and stay (:
hope he come often to stay
and he didnt snatch com frm me O.O

24/01/10
sun was suppose to work too
and again i didnt go =/
dinner at gombak mac wif wendy
went her house to use com
and she lend me her itunes acc THANKS (:

25/01/10
ytd was sch and work
and its all abt ATTENDANCE ATTENDANCE ATTENDANCE
recieve my 2nd warning letter lols
im in the danger zone =/
watever everything jus sucks

25/01/10
today sch and vivo
my hp is bak frm servicing
hope it works well frm now
and its the first time i took 188 alone
frm habourfront to cck
im so not use to it!!!!
i always take 188 only wif wendy
and i will sleep through out
poor wendy has to lend me
her shoulder everytime =/
luckly today meet a sec sch fren on bus (:

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how was ur sec sch life?
frm wat i understand now is
if u r a bully, u will find ur sec sch life
fun, exicitng, wild, memorable?
but if u r the one who get bully,
it will be........they will find tat
poly or ite friends are better
and now i know the difference
between sec sch fren and sec sch classmate lols

i ask mum a question
which i expected the ans
but still felt like giving a try
me: can i quit working?
mum: @#$%$% blah blah blah
EXPECTED!!!! haiz....

frm 2009 i said i will try and go bak often
now it is 2010, and i havent step in there
since 2009.....wat a failure.....=/

STRENGTH IS NOTHING MORE THAN
HOW WELL U HIDE THE PAIN.

2010-01-25T23:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO H4F (:

2010-01-21T02:58:00.003+08:00

i got lots of things to blog everytime
but i will have no time or something...
and when i have the time
my mind goes blank =/

idk why but my mind seems
to be occupied wif stuffs
i tired so hard to empty it
but it seems to be always full
sometimes i even think
wat the hell is occuping my mind
i cant find the answer
does anybody knws the answer?

seriously i think i have no rights
to say or console anyone
becos i knw when it happens on me
i cant take it easy too
talking is always easy
but not the actions....

i didnt know tat im so weak inside
but i knw i have grown up
compare to the past
for now i nid a meet up for h4f
nid a xxxx, nid a drink,nid a break
maybe a good talk for tml night =/

再强的人也有权利去疲惫

2010-01-06T02:42:00.002+08:00

i wrote 3 letters or i shd say email
for 3 people who r in trouble?
i dun knw wat can i do
all i thought of is this
i know i have been working recently
and like dun give a damm wats happen ard me
but i knw i cant aviod it
i have to find a solution
people this is the least i can do
u may hate me for writing all those stuff
but it is really frm the bottom of my heart
i know i have been telling people
anything call or sms me
but am i always there
i doubt tat too
seriously i cant be sure too
becos i know i cant help at all
all i can do is sit there and listen
im a liar for tat very line
i will be there......
treat it as bullshit
becos when i knw there is trouble
i will try and escape it
instead of try helping

my life now is only 4 place
-home
-sch
-cck cinema
-opp clementi ite's temple
tats means sch,work,slp
nthing else =/

im off to write the 4th letter/email
hope this 4 people will feel better
after reading it
just hope they wound't hate me for it
i care so i say
i dun knw how to say it face to face
so i write it down
maybe i will start wif this 4 ppl
if the respond is good
i will try to write to a few more ppl

PEACE (:

Giving up doesnt means u r weak.
Sometimes it means u r stong enough to let go.

2010-01-03T22:36:00.005+08:00

SCHOOL STARTS TML
AND IM STONING INFRONT OF THE COM
and it means my bro went hm ler
im home alone again....lols
alittle sad he is goin back
althought i hate him snatching com wif me

havent quit both job yet =/
dun knw wat to do oso
tak one step at a time bahs
tml go sch then c how bahs

everytime there is alot of things
i want to say but when i sit infront
of tis bloody hell com, i cant type
tat explain why i spend hours blogging
anyway thanks nana for the christmas present
and faris for the blog banner (:

do humans really nid to lose something
they really love before learning how to
CHERISH!?!?!? and regret at the end of the day
and expect people to pity them???
seriously people dun wait until it is too late
it is meaningless by then........
time and tides wait for no man

reality taught me to be cruel
dreams taught me to be kind
so shd i face reality or keep dreaming

以为自己不再去想你,
保持不被刺痛的距离,
就算早已忘了我自己,
却还想要知道你的消息

2010-01-02T16:32:00.001+08:00

2010
is
DOWN
DOWN
DOWN
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你和我一样张开眼睛再张望
灵魂另一半遗落在这世界上
我们太相仿都太小心太倔强
因为受过伤所以久居在孤单
是不是月光太过浪漫
是不是因为寂寞感染
这一晚
让我们有了一种联想
让我们看到爱的彼岸
一眼就情深一往
是不是越过半个海洋
是不是厌倦假装坚强
这一晚
放开了安全的那道墙
解放了想很久的渴望
一眼就有了爱的预感

我们看起来都还有一点紧张
探索的手长寂寞的出航
一但握紧了一握紧了就不肯放

B.A.D - 半个海洋

2009-12-29T02:22:00.005+08:00

2009 is coming to an end
all i can say is
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.
.
.
.
2009 IS REALLY A BAD YEAR!!!!

this month is really pack for me
becos of work work and work
i know i could jus enjoy tis holiday
by jus slacking without working
but i dun knw why, i jus wan to work
maybe keep myself busy wif stuff
at least not wasting those time at slp?

sch is opening soon, so freaking lahs
dun feel like goin at all -,-
can i get some motivatation to sch
i guess im quitting my cinema job soon
after avatar ends? cos nobody is staying anyway

christmas is over jus like tat lols
i celebrated it at work!! =.=
anyway i did celebrate wif H4F on 23
somemore is after work and funeral
wat happen on tat day was...........

"copied from nana's blog (:"

On the 23th dec, Day 01:
Happy 4-friends celebrated advanced Christmas 09. We booked a bbq pit at Pasir Ris, where there were only the 4 of us. We decided to have our first camping where i bought my tent along. At the start, only the 3 of us :

bought the food first, then we travelled to Pasir Ris. We pitched the tent and stuff, and start up the fire, and our bbq begins! Our bbq pit layout (with the tent at the back) :

After midnight, Ron came along (the only girl with bangs-shit):
but she looks like she's wearing a headband here*

She came, and we had more fun. We played pussy-drink again! A game which never fails to bring us much laughter and fun ^^

24th Dec, Day 02:
It started raining at 5plus am, so we head back to our tent and stayed in. Games were played, but everyone got tired when it was about 6am. So we all went to sleep. We woke up to hear the sound of the rain hitting on our tent, it was still raining. The rain never stopped, and it got bigger. It was raining cats and dogs ..
hahahahaha*

We decided to start keeping the tent in the rain, and all of us got drenched in the end. It was exhausting and cold, but i enjoyed myself with them!

tats wat happen for my christmas

and i tink i drank too much

alittle hangover lols

anyway thanks jieting and gina

for the christmas present and card

and only one person bought wat i wanted lols

shd not mention it thanks (:

everybody lets pray 2010 is a better year

and my countdown will be at work :((((

anyone wants to join me lols

i guess im just avioding everything

im weak, i cant handle it

nobody understand

i want to do better

2009-12-23T02:42:00.002+08:00

im turning to blogger again
i really nid to
really lost

its 3am now
another day gone just like tat
i seriously sucks at time managment

my uncle jus pass away tis morning
and ruin all my plans
i knw nobody will knw tis will happen
just hate when i have event
and always have something pop out
and my brother jus discharged from hospital
afew days back so happening @_@
i cant slp well last night
told mum today, she said she oso cant slp
i thought it is the weather hot
but mum say maybe becos my uncle
tats so spooky can....!!!

tis wed which is tonight
i was suppose to have bbq wif happy 4 frens
we already plan to ton and do all stuff
but i cant really confirm i can turn up there
i really wish i can becos last yr i miss it
yeah last yr i miss the chalet i miss the fun
i dun wish to miss it this yr too
i will try my very best to be there =/

the funeral will end at sat
my father wants me to be there everyday!!!
i really dun understand why
i knw as a respect i mus go
but i have 2 jobs on hand
i dun knw wat to do
i knw family is impt to me
but in the situation now
im not very close wif them
and i cant help much there
not saying i wound't go
of cos i will be there
but hope they give me some time for work
i dun wan to give up on both job

the 2nd job is my mum boss offer
so i dun wish to disappoint them
and they gave me alot of own time
the cinema job is the one i found
and i said i can work so they hired me
they are not enough of manpower now
becos of the stupid moive so crowed everyday
i dun wan to give up on either one
trying my really best to balance it
i guess this is the time to test how far i can go =/

i still cant decide wat to do tml
morning work at mum place
then to funeral then to bbq?
or work then funeral?
i dun knw shd i go or stay
if in the past i wound't hasted to
choose and stay wif family
but y am i hasting now?

i know everything cannot be prefect
but i still wan achieve the best
im stuborn so dun nid ask me rest
dun nid ask me quit one job
give me a solution or ????

okies enough of all my crapping
there is alot i havent done
i didnt meet up wif xin and jas
i didnt meet up wif je pop frens
i didnt spend enough time wif
jie ting, jolene and gina
i didnt spend enough time
shopping wif sy
and of cos the BBQ wif H4F
argh!!!! 24hr is nt enough now
even sleep is not sufficient
SORRY GUYS i tied myself to work
haiz.......c u all next yr lols
the stupid show is till 31 dec =.=
pls grant me more time!!!!

I Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while i'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that i can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me i'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.

'cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but i have to believe
Just have a little patience

Have a little patience
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while i'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience

2009-12-16T02:59:00.002+08:00

6 a.m.
The clock is ringing
I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cause I don't think I'm gonna make it

I punch in
I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock,
But it's not moving
'Cause every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating (on and on)
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

it's so long
I can't go on
it's so long
I can't go on

SIMPLE PLAN - Worst Day Ever

2009-12-14T01:11:00.003+08:00

another working and moody day
didnt really laugh alot at work
jus hope it faster end so i dun
nid face all those customers
tml working at another side
really quite tired of it
but at least im not wasting my life
working 2 jobs make me
learn how to juggle my time
time management is really impt
if not u cant get anything done
hope everything turns out well

christmas is coming!!!!
can i have lots of chocolate =s

好希望能淋一场雨
让自己清醒

2009-12-12T01:06:00.003+08:00

BANGS!!!!! hahas
finally take a photo of myself wif BANGS!!
bet many ppl wan to knw too hahas
okies lets divert to my today unluckyness
it will be a long one so u can skip if u wan

today woke up at 9.40
and i was suppose to be at work at 10
lucky enough time for me
cos it is near so i guess i choose the right job =D
end work at 4 and short of $6 =s

when i was preparing to leave to my grandma hus
mum call and ask me go gombak to
open door for my father cos he forget take keys
and my elder bro is in sch and younger bro
already at my grandma hus
so i went back BUT my keys cant open!!!
fuck lors!!! tried to call locksmith and it cost $50
so drop the idea of it
then call my elder bro c if he can come bak
he said ok then i tired ask my younger bro to cab down
so he cab down and i sms my elder bro nt to come
ard 20 - 30 mins later, my father was still trying
and he keep asking if i use and open be4
like fuck lors!!! although i seldom go bak
but everytime i go bak oso use tat mahs
he doubt tat it the key for tat house =.=
and suddenly my father open it and
at tat very moment my younger bro appear
and i saw his expression was like wau lau!!! lols
but who to blame??? =/
the one who forget to take keys?
but nobody wants to forget rite
and wat if im the one who forget to tak?
and tat damm key work jus at the time he appear
i was like fuck lahs try so long cannot
sure my younger bro blame me
for making him come down for nothing
and when the door was open for jus few minutes
my mum called and scold
becos my elder bro was on the way back oso
c the damm door make all 3 of us
go all the way there when we r suppose
to be at my grandma hus eating dinner

this was not the end, there is a last incident
but im not goin to say it out here
all i can say is SUAY SUAY AND SUAY!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOLENE BEK (:

我在你的心里是否还留一个位置
是没有人能够代替不能转移

2009-12-09T01:54:00.004+08:00

tonight is sure a great night
but i didnt really let out all
the things i wanted to say
but i really dun knw how to
or i dun have the courage?
but i really enjoyed tonight
how i hope it never ends

wat i wanted to say was....?
my mind was occupied wif
WHAT IF?
what if we stop u in the first place?
what if we gave u enough advice?
what if i put in effort to stop u?
i know tis cant be blame on anyone
but still everytime i tink of it
i nid alot of energy to hold back the tears
im sure everyone can feel the saddness
and i know u r in pain more than us
nobody can turn back time
i only thing and we can do is being by ur side now
my hp will be 24/7 for u
im sure of tis, even if other ppl cant find me

i can cry wif u
i can give u a hug
i can make u simle
but i cant find him back for u

HAPPY 4 FRIENDS WILL BE WITH YOU THROUGH THIS (:

2009-12-05T23:43:00.003+08:00

hello people im back....
currently working at cinema
the pay is low but still it is a easy job
at first was jus give out glasses for 3D movies
now im selling tickets, so troublesome
waiting for avatar to show
then i can give out glasses again
holidays are coming but i dun have freedom ler
cos of work =/
and becos of work im goin to neglect people again
im very sure of it becos i already done it =s
so dun ask me when free
jus let me know when u wan me to be free
becos i dun have any schedule for work

i dun knw wats wrong wif me
it seems tat i have lose the patient i use to have
and i cant torelate little things now
wats wrong have i change?
becos i dun wan the change
i wan to be wat i use to be
who is fine wif anything
but i guess is the enviroment
which is forcing the change =/
maybe im really sick of crying
tired of trying
im smiling but dying inside....

I HATE SCH
I HATE WORK
I HATE LIFE

Sweet Dream or A Beautiful Nightmare

2009-11-29T16:54:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FARIS =D

2009-11-19T16:45:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday To Nana Low (:

Hope u last long wif ..................... ;)

Best friend:

I know how stupid you are

and still choose to be seen

with you in the public =D

2009-11-17T18:41:00.007+08:00

"原來愛情從沒有離開過
只是我記得你忘記"

has not been blogging often
cos of lazyness again =/
life has nt been so smooth as usual
jus tak one step at a time
all i can say is i have to keep moving on

愛只有簡單筆畫
卻比想象復雜

2009-10-25T00:38:00.005+08:00

2 weeks didnt update blog
cos im jus plain lazy
bad habit is back =/
have been neglecting ppl ard me again =s
there is so much things i wan to do
but i always nv get it done =/
brain is nt functioning well today
dun knw where my mind went to
just cant focus at all
and both lindy and yee xian
are trying to make me talk today
cos im too quiet...sry =s

now i feel tat im selfish :(
wondering if i didnt leave
wat will it be like now =/
better or worse?
i knw it is past already
but knowing the result
i jus help but tink of it
i knw he didnt wan it too
but it is the fact now
heard tat he cried o.O?
and i wasnt there haiz.....
hope bro will work hard next yr bahs
and im planing of staying at both side now
haiz...asking a lazy person
to move here move there is really a TOUGH job!!! lols.

if i have a choice.......i will live alone
but now i dun have a choice
so to be fair. i shd stay at both sides?

mum ask me to look for job again
i knw i have been avoiding it
cos im lazy =/
all i can do nw is attend sch and study hard
but im still late for sch AS USUAL =x

good luck to nana and CHX for their o lvl
good luck to faris for his ippt test?
u can do it (:

a good show was played
acted by prfessional actors
but who wrote the script?

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

2009-10-12T02:00:00.002+08:00

sch starts tml =/
dun feel like goin at all
but i will still go......

bloghopping and i saw tis
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故事是人写的。开头是人想的。结局是人要的。
我写了一本我要的书，一个由我要的故事。
有我要的开头但没有我要的结局。

y doesnt anyone wants to tak blame?
I'll take that blame.............

2009-10-02T00:53:00.012+08:00

I really dun knw wat to update =/
playing tagged tis few days lols
okies guys if u all r free
tak alook at afew email bellow (:

A beautiful little boy!!!!
You do not need any word to describe him ... .... just look at his smile you'd know he's a brave and confident boy.

There's nothing in life needed to be fear .. it just need! to be understood

Never break 4 things in your life - Trust, Promise, Relations & Heart because they do not make noise but pains a lot ...

If you think you are unhappy, look at them

If you think your salary is low, how about her?

If you think you don't have many friends...

When you feel like giving up, think of this man

If you think you suffer in life, do you suffer as much as he does?

If you complain about your transport system, how about them?

If your society is unfair to you, how about her?

Enjoy life how it is and as it comes. Things are worse for others and is a lot better for us.

There are many things in your life that will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart....pursue those...

Observe around you and be thankful for all that you have.

Qian HongYan lost her legs in an accident

Her family in China are poor and couldn't afford prosthetic legs, so she uses a basketball to help her move.

Qian uses two wooden props to drag herself, and never complain, even though she has worn out six basketballs.

She attends her class

She always smiles

Always cheerful

Always positive

With help she is now able to afford a pair of prosthetic legs.

Smile always. Be grateful with what u have.

A video intro by faris. A touching video (:

At the end of the day,

You can either focus on

what's tearing u apart or

what's holding u tgt.

2009-09-25T03:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUA HUI XIA (CHX)

tis is bridbrian!!! and she is very retard!!!
pls grow shorter!!! although u r 18 but u mus look like 14
so when u do legal stuff, u still have chance to flash ur ic ;)
okies i know i dun nid to talk alot of nonsense to u =p
cos u rem jus a simple blank msg will do ;)
lastly HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY :)
LETS ENJOY OUR CHALET!!!!

we're the type of friends
that don't know why
we started laughing
so we LAUGH HARDER (:

2009-09-25T02:25:00.012+08:00

Im updating now cos i will be away
for many days?
25th to 27th chalet wif H4F (:
flu and cough pls go away first :(

21st sep 09
went out wif lindy late twins hahas
went aston and eat. veri full!!!!

after tat outdoor cafe to slack

and finally cine for ice-cream & movie
watch the ugly truth! nice cos it is funny (:
AND I WORE PINK LOLS

photos for the day:

22nd sep 09
tink i wan rotting at home
i forgotten ler =x

23rd sep 09
went out wif lindy, yee xian and vince
went to eat sakae sushi buffet
ate till very full again =s
after tat went to shop ard orchard
and lindy had her haircut!!!!
for more information observe the photos bellow hahas
lastly cine for ice cream again NICE MUS TRY (:

photos for the day (not all uploaded)

24th sep 09
actually goin queensway
but i choose to slp =x
so meet nana and hui at 4
went to buy cake and cab to hx hus
gave her a surprise (:
stay at her hus eat cake and watch show awhile
went to westmall and lot 1 to get some stuff
walk ard and went home.

sry birdbrain i knw today is not fun!
somemore nid u to travel ard wif us =/
nvm chalet sure mus enjoy (:

idk am i angry?
or jus disappointed?
do i really care?
i dun wan care so much
i dun give a damm!!!
not happy jus come find me talk lahs
pls let me have a peaceful holiday
maybe i shd get a job asap
so i wound't tink so much
i wonder where is my limit? =s

好人难做让我当坏人吧 ;)

Those tat matter to me now ^^

黑色笑靨掉了　
雪白眼淚掉了　
該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了

瞳孔沒有顏色　
結了冰的長河　
回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了　
主角對白掉了　
該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了

胸口沒有快樂　
斷了翅的白鴿　
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

2009-09-21T00:58:00.018+08:00

Sun 20.09.2009
wow a nice date again lols
as usual stay at home
nthing much happen
i only thing i knw is
everyone is having their own problems
and i cant help at all......

Sat 19.09.09
woke up at ard 2
played wif jovan till 5+
prepare and went to woodlands
blk 344? an open space
quite boring over there
cause nthing to do
ard 9+ happy 3 frens came over
sit awhile and left to slack
ard 11+ went home
sry im nt sad lahs, jus no mood
idk y but things keep running through my mind
am i useless =/

i tink im a liar =/
i always say i will be there
but will i really be there?
if it is last time i will say yes
but now im doubting myself too
i understand the feeling when
smthing happen and u dun wish to talk abt it
but u jus need a person beside u
i understand so i nv wan my friends to feel tis way
but i guess i failed =(
i said anything sms or call me
but how when i dun reply and pick up
is either i dun have mood or plain lazy
next time u guys shd send me
telling me ur hus on fire
i guess by then i will reply or call u bak
im jus so confuse~~~

okies photos for past few days
but still not all =s

16 Sep 2009

12 Sep 2009

11 Sep 2009

09.09.09

06.09.09

A board made by 3 besties (:

everything have change, including me.

2009-09-19T04:31:00.004+08:00

woke up ard noon again
went orchard wif sy again
ate at pastamania again hahas
went shopping as usual
help her pay her shirt as a gift (:
ard 6+ went to starbucks
didnt wan to eat or drink
cos i was still full =/
so she went to buy herself
and she came bak angrily wif
a oreo chessecake and a drink
cos they didnt provide candles
and so it spoil her plan hahas
she even bought lighter already
hahas sit there laughing away
while she is cursing =p
its okay lahs....jus rem
only coffeebeans provide candles (:
sat there quite long be4 we leave
the first time we got so much thing
to talk abt hahas
train home ard 8
inside de train we went to sit
at the 2 person seats when someone left
and surprisedly the person
drop a packet of mild seven =x
but i very good, i didnt tak hahas
stay at home and watch tv
waiting for 11+ to meet jas for supper
ard 12 left hus and when i was walking to the staris
they r hiding there already lols
okies thanks very much (:
crap and talk under the block
after walk to lot 1 mac and eat
and stupid jas told the mac person my bday
and the person say her gf bday oso lols
and he wish me (: thanks hahas
stay till 3am and walk hm.
i tink i already get the best present from both of u
and it is 3 besties r back tgt again (:
Thanks for everything u all have done ^^

2009-09-17T01:35:00.006+08:00

i nearly lose my cool~~~~
idk how much longer can i hold on
seriously no mood to entertain anyone nw
maybe due to insufficient sleep again
last nite lie on the bed whole night still cant slp
then ard 5 sms jas, sry cant acc u go!!!
lie awake till 10+ go eat breakfast wif jas
after tat go print some photos
went bus stop and was force to say things lols
11 + walk home and change and use com awhile
train to BPP and meet jie ting and gina
and jie ting bought flowers for us again
last year oso buy flowers hahas
bus to bugis and meet jolene
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went to mind cafe
ate and play frm 2 to 6
jie ting and jolene bought cake
when they serve out the cake
happen to be the same as wat i ate on 11sep hahas
nvm eat 2nd time (:
and open presents frm them
THANKS!!!!!!!! I LIKE IT (:
walk ard bugis street, iluma, bugis junction
and train to somerset
went to cine then heeren
took 190 home wif jie ting and gina.
and i was so tired tat i slp while standing =s
but still thanks to jie ting shoulder hahas
I ENJOY TODAY ALOT!!!!
HAD LOTS OF FUN AND LAUGHTER (:
but the sad thing was.....only the four of us =/
mabel, mink and rachel cant make it =(
nvm next meet up mus come (:
I MISS THOSE DAYS AT CLEMENTI ITE!!!!!

tml program i really dun knw
i only knw let me have
enough slp first than say bahs.......

WTH do u all wan frm me =/

im worry =s

2009-09-14T17:06:00.004+08:00

DIARRHOEA & VOMITING :(
i guess my stomach is unable to digest
all those cakes, buffet, bbq and steamboat food
im scare of those upcoming events now
cos its all about food again =s

16sep - meet up wif clementi ite frens
17sep - meet up wif balestier ite frens (not confirm)
19sep - great grand father and grandmother celebration
25sep - chalet wif happy 4 frens (:

2009-09-13T05:10:00.007+08:00

guys u all can skip reading tis post
cos it is all words hahas
tats wat happen when im lazy to update everyday =/
waiting for all the photos
so next post will all be photos (:

Friday 4 sep 2009
woke up late as usual lols
pack my bag for chalet
and meet hui for haircut
headed to pasir ris for chalet
reach there ard 5+ =/
waited for nana and hx as they r doin the preparation
so hui and me took our books out
wanted to study but at chalet where gt mood to study
hahas in the end jus fool ard and play =p
after tat went to ehub and have dinner
ate at a store call 'bbq chicken' lols
their food is ok but place is nice (:
bought some snacks, beer and watever we want for supper
went to waston and bought dye hair things
went back to room and start dye hair (:
birdbrain was the hairdresser for the day
didnt use up all cos save some for hui
the outcome is gd everybody like hahas
so next is hui turns while waiting we watch tv
her outcome was good too =p
after tat went out to buy smthing
and slack near by our room
return to the room take turn to shower
had cup noodles for supper
hui and me was about to doze off
it is 1 or 2 but nana dun wan us to slp =x
so we started playing cards
played a few kinds of card games
till ard 4+ all of them was tired
but im wide awake ler =/
still we decide to slp to store enegry for next day
off lights and off to lala land

Sat 5 sep 2009
shd wake up early but slp lik pig =x
nana and hx woke up early to do decorate
while hui and me continue slping
cos we oso dun knw wat to do =/
hui woke up first and i continue slping =p
soon i wake up too and c them decorate
hui and i was hungry wanted to eat
but buffet start ard 6 or 7
which is a few hours away
so decide to wait
after they r done wif their decoration
went bak to our room
and start playing card games hahas
play till ard 5 we start to shower and change up
buffet came and time to start fire for bbq
soon nana relatives and
her sis fren slowly came one by one
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forget wat time cut cake
and photo session
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAB AND KRIS (:
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11+ most ppl leave
left wif us and some of nana sis frens
who r staying over night too
we didnt have a room
cos nana sis fren will be using it
so we have to ton outside the whole night
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Sun 6 sep 2009
shower and pack up
had mac for breakfast
hui went home first
while nana and hx accompany me
to tanjong pagar to collect things
but sadly it is wrong so mus wait till tml
no choice so head home
reach home 1+ straight away change and SLP
slp till ard 7+ wak up
discuss wif lindy whether if we wan to ton and study
cos next day is exam =s
in the end we decide to go fajar mac cos it is 24hr
vince and chuan hai join too....
reach there ard 11+ start to study
ard 2+ or 3 nicky and his fren came too
5+ all of them went home to play game
left wif lindy and me and
soon we have no mood to study ler

Mon 7 sep 2009
wanted to change place and have breakfast
but in the end went to vince hus
lindy took a nap while i watch show
left his hus ard 11+ and train to bedok
collect my things and head for sch
waited for exam to start
in the end only knw 3 ques WTH lors
nvm don't really give a damm ler hahas
train home and time to slp

starting to hate sch =/

Tues 8 sep 2009
rest at home the whole day
till night went to meet wendy
so long didnt c her =p
had dinner and shop ard lot 1
and home after tat

u actually notice me ^^

Wed 9 sep 2009
slp till 1+ till sy wak me up
cos im meeting her at 2+ hahas
prepare and went to meet her
train to orchard and had pepper lunch
after tat of cos is shopping hahas
ard 5+ bus to bugis and
decide to watch moive at iluma
watch G-force!!! the hamster r cute!!! (:
but nv get to watch 3D de =/
walk ard bugis awhile and decide to go hm
train to jurong east and went popular to get some stuff
sy bus home and i train home

090909 does not really matter to me =/

Thurs 10 sep 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDY!!!
shd meet wendy in the noon
and go comex but i cancel it
sry!!! after tat went yew tee
find jasmine at her workplace
and meet faris to pass him things
after tat went lot1 mac wif jasmine
eat and slack awhile and went home

idk y im so down =/

Fri 11 sep 2009
slp frm 7am to 10am
woke up and sms jolene
to plan some stuff
shd be meeting jolene at 1pm
but i was late =s
jolene, bernard, aaron, gerald and me
went to discuss the surpise first lols
after tat meet the others outside topshop
headed to topone without bernard and aaron
reached there and bernard came out hahas
pass lindy a cheapo present without wrapping =s
went in topone and settle down
suddenly aaron out wif a cake and presents
tats the plan hahas lindy hope u like it (:
sang till 6pm and left
after tat went to have steamboat
thanks vince and lindy for serving me wif food
hahas really tired with only 3hrs of slp
went bak bugis shop and tak neo prints hahas
after home sweet home (:

Sat 12 sep 2009
slp till sy sms me again hahas
wake me up and prepare
bus to bukit batok 1 head for bbq
reach ard 6+ and jus sit there =x
really no mood to do anything
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10+ everyone finally reach
so its time to cut cake and photo session
left at ard 11 cos later no bus home =/
anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEO SZE YEE
hope u enjoy the bbq :)

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finally im done..........
idk is it im caring too much?
jus hate them nt taking serious of their health
u may say im ok i still can hang on
but u nv knw when u will faint over
u can say "i wound't de lahs"
but nthing is impossible de rite
u never know!!! fun is impt so is health
hui im not jus talking abt u
i knw u r angry wif me during chalet
but still i will stop u. maybe i over react bahs
im refering to some other ppl too
if u knw who u r lahs =x
i may slp late at night or maybe in the morning
but i knw myself i always slp the whole day
to get back those energy
but i guess i shd nt bother too much ler
cos i knw it is always me standing beside
watching them suffer but i cant help at all
jus hate it =/ seriously jus dun play wif ur health
becos when u r sick, ur the one who suffer

我真的累了...........
我开始依靠他们了吗?

2009-09-03T00:57:00.004+08:00

I WAN GO MIA =s
ZZzzz....my bad habit it back
i dun reply sms-es again =x
holiday is coming.....hope it is easy to contact me
sorry wendy!!!!!!!!!!!! pls dun angry wif me!!!!!!
i tink i shd remain sick lols
when im sick i slp as early as 8pm
but when i recover i slp as late as 4am
so i guess it is better to be sick =x

have been coping myself at home
jus dun feel lik goin anywhere or doing anything =/
but seems lik so much thing waiting for me to do
=(((((((((((((((( wake me up when sep ends =p
okies shd nt stuck here wif blogger
shd continue wat i have been doin tis few days
watch NARUTO (: 200+ ep hahas

there is smthing inside me but idk wat it is
haiz.......friday shd enjoy and forget abt eveything (:

My Wish - Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. Yeah, yeah.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish (my wish, for you).

This is my wish (my wish, for you)
I hope you know somebody loves you (my wish, for you).
May all your dreams stay big (my wish, for you).

cos u told me to hold on..........

2009-08-11T00:22:00.014+08:00

LOST AND INSECURE

i predict i will fall sick sooner or later.....
cos i have ben slping at 6am in morning

im trying to drink as much water as i can

hope it is not too late =p

friday went out wif happy 4 frens

cant really rem where we go

i have bad memory maybe cos nt enough slp

went cityhall wif hui to meet nana and hx

after tat ate at suntec

actaully plan to go henderson waves

but plan cancel cos nobody dare go up mt faber park

cos it is too dark so went to vivo and slack

i wan go henderson waves!!!!

and i have no memory of sat at all lols

can someone remind me hahas

sunday no mood i guess =/

jus goin to tok abt my breakfast wif jasmine (:

was 3+am and chatting wif jas on msn

and i said was hungry

so she suggest goin to mac

she check online to c if it is 24hr
and yes it is so meet her at 4.30am

went to lot one mac
maybe due to insufficient slp

we went crazy toking abt nonsense

and joking ard!!!

and she snap so much of my pic =(

ate till 6.30am and leave
and it is rainning damm cold =(

but i still walk hm.....

reach hm didnt slp but use com >_<

wanted to tak a nap on the sofa

but soon my baby cousin woke up @_@

play wif him all the way till 1+pm

cannot tak it already so went to slp

slp till 8+pm then wak up

im wanted to slp early today

but it is 1.30am already Zzzzz.....

my body clock is mess up again

and my eye bag is getting worse

look at the pictures bellow hahas

all pic are edited by her (:

and tis my baby cousin (:
his bdae is tis coming friday

wat to get for him =/

I WAN TIS PHONE but no $$$ =(

Why doesnt anybody want to take blame.....

i finally learned what life is about
hanging on when your heart has had

enough & giving more when you want to give up

turn out the wrong way but you gotta just stay strong

you gotta move on cause the hardest lessons in life

are the ones that will always keep you

stunned and speechless

2009-08-05T22:35:00.004+08:00

cant believe im still awake now!!!
havent slp for a night @_@
watch show till 5.30 and wanted to catch a nap
but lie awake till 7+ and nearly fall asleep
but lindy call me so i woke up
meet and went sch tgt.
lose temper in sch today sry =/
didnt have enough slp so lik tis lahs
will treat u all drinks as apology (:
after sch wanted go ikea and eat
but was lazy so jus eat at bugis
after much consideration decide to go hm
sry lindy didnt acc to tb
next time if nid me acc sure okies (:
train hm but was peak hr at jurong east
so decide go visit popular colleagues
stay there for an hr and spend $50 @_@
im broke hahas nvm help their sales lols
i actually bought 2 storybooks!!!! other magazine lahs hahas
since i work at popular i read books!! only one lahs hahas
tats mircale okies!!! i nv even read storybooks!!!
slient reading is always reader digest
becos it is a mus to order it hahas
first book i read is "tuesday with morrie"!!! nice book!!!
spend ard 2 or 3 days finish reading.
next book is "the five people you meet in heaven".
read a few pages nv read already hahas
i guess i will skip tis book >_<
jus bought "for one more day" and "the last lecture"
hope i will finish reading them (:
and i was introduce this bk "the time traveler's wife"
sounds nice!!! after complete reading those 2 books
then consider bahs.
sheesh another wordy post @_@

if smoking kills why r there still so many ppl alive?
y does everyone give bad impression who those who smoke?
so what if u have a veri clean record but a veri LOUSY ATTIUDE?
who says a person who smoke is a BAD INFLUENCE?
i bet some of them are better than those making use of ppl, backstabber or betrayer.
RAWR!!!! jus dun touch cig already lahs!!!!
BIRDBRAIN i support u tell the truth!!!! fk her lahs @#$%^&

anyway wendy teo,rq and jy please find time
and meet up casey!!! she miss all of u (:

I'll always be beside you until the very end,
wiping all your tears away,being your best friend.
I'll smile when you smile & feel all the pain you do,
& if you cry a single tear, I promise I'll cry too. (:
some ppl may recieve this in msn frm me ;) *only girlfriends*

in the book of life
the answers aren't in the back......

2009-08-01T03:42:00.005+08:00

a email tat i wan to share (:

A Return is Requested....You'll see why.

Breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions..

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake,
literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then
even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the
restaurant were set on me, judging
my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope..'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers..

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?'

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son,the instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS -
NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

okies end of email
it has been running through my mind since i read it lols
i rem i use to tell my frens tat if anything happens
jus call or text me and i will be there
but dun knw since when i dun pick up calls and reply sms-es =/
i didnt care abt their life much since then
wat was i doin when they nid someone....
okies i have made up my mind to make my hp 24/7
yes i say it i will do it!!! jus hope im nt slping lik a log!!!
i wan to mak a habit tat when my hp rings and i will wak up!

no sch for me today
stay at hm and i actually went to flip my dcom bk
tats mircale hahas
jus dun wan to disappoint those who pin hopes on me
anyway meet xin at 9+
finally got to catch up wif each other life lols
talk abt how things use to be
and how each and every person are busy wif their own life nw
it is really memories (:
stay till ard 12.30 and home for dinner.

xin no matter u wan hold on or let go
i will support u de (:
if u r tired tak a rest
if u feel troubled say it out
if u feel lik crying u can find me (:
and dun nid worry abt me
im nt emo lahs!!! i veri peace de lols
y all say i emo i oso nt elmo sister hahas
seriously if i nid someone to talk to i will say out de
im nt lik some ppl so stuborn de =x

cant wait till next friday out to henderson waves!!!

Someday everything will all make perfect sense.
So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears,
and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.

2009-07-28T00:37:00.004+08:00

interesting and tiring day
am i too over o.O?
maybe im jus playing wif fire lols
shd not let this happen again
everything shd go bak to the way it shd be
im tired so hack care bahs (:
anyway had a long good talk wif HEDGEHOG
hahas laugh like mad =p
let us go act tgt!!! =x 1hr $10 arhs

friend or foe?
i choose friend.

SORRY HEDGEHOG!!!!

have been coping at home
i have neglect my frens =/
anyway they r busy hahas
nana and birdbrain gd luck for O lvl
hui enjoy ITE life!!!
clementi is fun =p
ruiqi gd luck for NDP and wushu
wendy and sy are busy wif SIM projects and exams
hahas jiayou and gd luck
and this few ppl i havent seen them for lik 100+ yrs lols
jasmine, roanna, jieting, gina, mabel, jolene, mink
i will try find time and meet them up (:

and those ppl out there CHEER UP!!!
can dun emo already lols
those who jus breakup
those who love someone but.....
those who have bf/gf but......
u shd knw who u r lahs
i had listen to ur story
and gave advices
this is all i can do
the rest is up to u all
JUST DON'T BE STUBORN!!!

giving up doesn't mean that u r weak
sometimes it means your strong enough to let go.

2009-07-23T17:44:00.003+08:00

another one down :(
sunday was told tat my elder bro had fever and today i receive a call frm my younger bro asking to fetch him frm sch cos he was not feeling well.
luckly didnt went for morning lesson so wake up and went to hillgrove
on the way saw my father so told him abt it and he fetch me over. reach do some paperwork and leave. his fever was 39 @_@ so after tat brought him clinic. went to eat and headed to sch. was 1hr late, nvm i jus go for the sake of attendance only =/

why cant everyone stay healthy and bloody hell tak care of urself -.-

yeah saw u again

2009-07-22T22:18:00.008+08:00

whats the place that u hate going most???
i tink i found it since ytd.
the hospital. the place im weak at.
didnt went to sch but i went to SGH.
went to visit my aunt. and because of h1n1 it is so troublesome -.-
u mus be in the nomination list and only 2 ppl at a time WTH!!!
stay there less than 1hr due to me
sry i turn my back at u cos i cant hold on to the tears anymore
it remind me of my brother
when he was lying in the bed all i can do is stand outside the glass panel and all i can do is nothing!
and now i nid a person lying in the bed to ask me to lead a happy life!? WTF
now the only thing tat matter is get well!!! pls recover soon!!!

im willing to be the one lying there.....

2009-07-16T00:40:00.003+08:00

time to update when so many ppl r asking for it hahas
i wonder if im dreaming all this while......
i overlook alot of thing.....
i practically forgot most of things
and when i thought of it, it is too late
GUILTY =/

the thought of quitting is back =/
argh!!!! trying hard to get rid of it
if it is as easy as pressing the button backspace
how great will tat be....

someone on facebook wrote this:
"i've come to realised that the 'seemingly beautiful world' are after all a facade; people wear mask(s) to hide their innermost feelings/emotions about events...Maybe as time passes, they are able to blend in so well that they had forgotten that what's on them is afterall not their true self. Things aren't always what it seems to be, and seeing isn't necessarily believing."
how true it is!!! is it really a must to wear a mask.....

something tat made me laugh today in msn
Booиseng. says :*wahseh emoron*i got 2 A's!*lmao.
ME says :*lols

Booиseng. says :*don't say i nerd*cause i am not
ME says :*nerd's always have gd result =x*hahas

Booиseng. says *i can read minds -.-
ME says :*how u knw im goin say tat*lols

Booиseng. says :*see,*hahaa*i answered in advance
.........................
damm it he snatch all my lines!!!!

anyway wan to thx hui on
05/05/09 and 13/07/09
thx for being there (:

我已经装不出笑脸
我讨厌装不出笑脸的自己
我更讨厌想要装笑脸的自己

lead me to the rainbow

2009-06-08T02:33:00.001+08:00

當你二十歲的時候，你醒來希望是愛情。
當你三十歲的時候，你醒來希望是結婚。
當你四十歲的時候，你醒來希望是成功。
當你五十歲的時候，你醒來希望是富有。
當你六十歲的時候，你醒來希望是知足。
當你七十歲的時候，你醒來希望是健康。
當你八十歲的時候，你只希望能醒過來。
quite true :)

recommend bellow 2 show
i find it nice :)
starlit and the concerto
MUST WATCH!!!!

2009-06-04T22:38:00.001+08:00

if it is adult stuff
why do i have to know?
why do i have to choose?
you say i didnt call or go see you
but did both of them call or come see her
is it because you think is her fault
then we should follow you
i trust my own judgement
i don't know how to face you
i don't have the courage
if i really have the choice
i will choose to live alone.....

felt like giving up

2009-06-04T02:49:00.001+08:00

Created a new blog :)
no reasons jus felt lik creating
its goin to be 2mths since i move to yew tee
already gotten use to it
and ard 2 more weeks i will be moving back to cck
time really waits for no man =/
okies shd not start emo-ing hahas
the previous blog was not deleted
those who wants to link can link it
both blog share the same tagboard
okies lets tak a look at some night view i taken while slacking wif H4F :)

What if I change the world?
What if I lead the way?
What if I be the one
That takes the blame?
What if I can't go on without you?
What if I graduate?
What if I don't?
What if I don't?

I'm slowly giving up
As the world's keep loosing faith
And you still turn your back
And now the path I follow takes a toll on me, on you
But there's no turning back
And my heart's still burning

2009-05-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

IM SUPER LAZY TO UPDATE
i did 2 post at a time
one is specially for my best friend
another one is i mus cos someone force me mus blog smthing lols
okies today sleep the whole day
cos really veri tired and whole body aching!!!
tink carry too many things ytd =/
went to have dinner cum supper wif jy and rq
slack awhile and went home............

02/05/09
had bbq session at pasir ris
for hui's bdae......
not much photo taken
but i will just upload all
hope u enjoy =)

not all the photos are here
will upload others when i have it
not everyone attend the cutting cake session
becos they have to rush for transport
we got derek to bring hui to the bench ard 11.40
so we can prepare the cake and at 12
they came bak hope we gave u a surprise =)
slack until ard 2 and went home....
THX derek, wei ming, kenett
for helping to start fire and cook those food
nana and hui help too =)
stupid bird brain jus slack there -.-
and thx wei ming for asking ur fren cum and fetch us home =)
although it is a lorry or truck?
it was cool~~~~nv had tis kind of feeling!!!!
when the wind blow on ur face so relaxing~~~~
really can destress =p hahas but it rain =/
if it didnt rain it will be prefect.........
hope i gt a fren who drive it so can drive me out
when i emo hahas!!!!!
thx for the ride =)

30/04/09
tis is the thing which i mus update lols
went to bugis wif sy today
meet up ard 2 o.O?
reach there eat and shop ard
3 or 4+ we already shop finish
and dun have place to go
so she suggest walking over to cityhall
walk over and she say here can walk to orchard
but i was tired so i didnt want
wanted to find starbucks to slack
but full house -.-
really no where to go so we decided to walk to the cathy for dinner
reach the cathy but long queue for the restraunt
so walk over to plaza sing and went to mac =.=
slack till ard 7 and train home
and smthing funny happen on the train
first time of my life im so EMBARRASS!!!!
cant stop laughing until they alight hahas
STUPID CHINA AIRLINE =x
shd nt mention wat happen........

it is 3am again
tml i die die mus go sch liao!!!! hahas
i dun wan to fall sick at tis period of time =/
swine flu later ppl treat u lik monster lols
i nid to find a job really soon
spend 200+ on bbq already
so ppl dun ask me out liao
cos i broke hahas
anyway PEOPLE PLZ TAK CARE OF UR HEALTH!!!!

告诉我怎么能忘记你的笑容
告诉我怎么做才是普通朋友

2009-05-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATE TO TEO ZIHUI =)

SHE IS OFFICIALLY 18 TODAY!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
I HAVE KNOW HER SINCE THE AGE OF 3!!!
cool rite~~~ hahas
we may not have the same taste same liking and
do not contact often but we r still VERY CLOSE =)
no words can describe this friendship
i know we will still stay in contact till the day we leave this world =)
LAST LONG WIF DEREK ;)

UR BDAE LAST YR..........

bird brain always likes to come in when we r taking picture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

i didnt attend sch again =/
i use the word AGAIN!!!!
haiz history is goin to repeat again o.O?
hope it wound't lahs I MUS SLP EARLY!!!!

30/04/09
today ard noon went to je wif BADMAN
to return uniforms. i was late sry lahs
reach and chat wif casey awhile in the office
walk to imm for lunch after went bak home
went online awhile and fall asleep again =/
i have been taking naps!!!!!!!!!!
wasnt in a gd mood~~~but had chat wif nerd and shy
nv fail to make me laugh =)

ANIMAL KINGDOM =)
faris - bat/zebra
veron - chipmunk
ruiqi - monkey
jianyong - panda/cat
wendy - pig
kelvin - giraffe
boon seng - raccoon/dog?

29/04/09
i miss morning lesson
so attend only the noon lesson
and was actually late for it =/
after tat went to eat wif classmates
(yee xian,lindy,bernard,vince,cheung hai)
shop ard novena and i left first
cos was emo? lols watever~~~
at night meet up wif rui qi for supper
so cool can slack till veri late
cos living veri near now
but only for 2mths =/
so shd meet up often be4 2mths

28/04/09
did went to sch today
after tat went to far east
wif yee xian and lindy
after bus home wif lindy
had some talks wif her =)

可能我只是把他们当做你的替代品

27/04/09
miss morning pe~~~
went for noon lessons
after tat went to far east wif
yee xian,lindy,vince and cheung hai
after tat bus home wif vince and cheung hai

26/04/09
BBQ wif JE clicks
was suppose to meet boon seng
12 at je station but i was late
for 19mins -.-
STUPID NERD kip complain!!!
after tat meet jy and chia lee at clementi
bus there and meet the rest
shd nt blog rest of the days~~~
let the photos do the talking
photos will be another post cos too many =/

its 3am already!!! time flies~~~
tml goin bugis wif sy better go lala land now.....

你总会在我难过的时候小心把我快乐拼凑

再一圈再飞一圈就好.......

2009-04-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

PHOTOS for BBQ on 26/04/09
lazy to choose those nice photos out
so just post all the photos
so there will be nice and ugly ones lols
but they all show the fun we had =)

photos provided by faris and nichole camera and rui qi hp

leit and nichole

the marshmallow couple hahas

tis mus be snap by BADMAN

tis one too lols

casey and faris

stupid badman face lols

kevin and wendy

rui qi

su wei

BADMAN and me lols

rui qi and me =)

yau hua and me

chia lee,yua hua and me

tis wat happens when there is no spoons

OUR CHEF =)

su wei,wendy,casey,yau hua

wendy,casey.yau hua

guys:faris,boon seng,jian yong
ladies:rui qi,wendy,chai lee

eng dept lols

su wei,faris,wendy

LOLS nice shot MR NERD AND SHY fight!!!!

chia lee,yau hua,boon seng,faris

faris and jian yong

jun yi trying to catch housefly

zhen lin trying to catch housefly

THX to them we get our food =)

stealing water to mak water bombs
i was looking out and was a pic snap frm outside
hello badman tis is a gals toliet!!!!
somemore u didnt of ur flash -.-
and chai lee or yau hua was in the toliet!!!

nice chair to slack on lols

rui qi and su wei

jy,bs,faris

the 3 bullies =x

poor su wei

su wei and zhen lin

jun yi and nichole

wendy and kevin

BOON SENG the NERD >_<

FARIS BLACKMAN =x

yau hua and su wei

wendy and yau hua cake

JIAN YONG DA SHU =)

snap by rui qi

HAPPY ADVANCE BDAY TO WENDY &
HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO YAU HUA

tis one cool!!! water bomb in the middle of the air....

the water effect!!! nice throw jy!!!

the housefly catchers

2009-04-26T02:48:00.000+08:00

im lazy to update =/
but i better update now
be4 i get my STM and forget everything

25/04/09
today get to rest the whole day
woke up ard 2+ went out to eat lunch
went home and slp again -.-
wake up ard 8+ went to meet rq
eat dinner and went to CC to slack
if tis goes on i will really become pig -.-
but definitely nt lik BIG MAC =x

24/04/09
i didnt go to sch today =/
didnt intend to skip but
didnt have any strength to wak up
so decide to go for the 2nd module lesson
but was nt feeling well so decide nt to go
ard noon wak up wanted to go get mc
but went to meet jie ting and gina
at orchard and didnt manage to get mc
went to THE CATHAY to eat at ASTONS
quite nice and price still ok.....
walk to plaza sing and shop ard
after tat went to KFC to eat again
becos of JIETING and her HUNGRY LAHS!!!
hahas the whole day jus kip goin HUNGRY LAHS
so kip eating lors lols
after tat walk to hereen,cine,wisma,taka and shaw house
at last bak home....didnt have a gd rest =/ but a fun day out wif them =)

23/04/09
sch as usual BORING
luckly have classmates
if nt i wound't even go at all
after sch went home and change
and meet up wif faris
went to lot 1 food culture and eat
after tat went to clementi and bus to west coast
and begin our survey for the bbq
we walk ard trying to find the pit
but cant so we try to find the map
and cant find too!!!! stupid park lors
tink we spend half an hour or more to find a stupid map
and when we found the map
we found out tat the park IS SO BIG!!!
we were at carpark 1 and bbq pit at carpark 2
so took a pic of the map and went to tak bus
and who knows we alight too late and end up near car park 3
so we have to walk bak frm the underpass
and i got bite frm a STUPID RED ANT
and the place is lik CONSTRUCTION site more than park -.-
walk to carpark 2 and finally found the bbq pit
stay for awhile and walk bak to carpark 1
slack and walk ard the place till 7+
and took bus bak to je
went to nutc and train to lot 1
went to meet wendy and had pasta =)
after tat went to gombak and meet jy
three of us went to playground and chat
ard 10+ went to get smth at ........
i miss those times......
ard 11 went home.
relaxing day today although
weather was hot but windy
had some talks wif badman =)
and i always ask him stupid ques
so he will ask me WHY THE SKY IS BLUE?
lols he ask me to blog tis =x
ENJOY SPENDING TIME WIF THEM =)

okies it is 5am now so EARLY
and i shd be slping
hope tml gt energy for the bbq session =/
anyway badman gt his letter for NS =(
have u seen a botak badman lols
in june u will c one =x
hahas enjoy training tis few weeks
gd luck =)
argh the weather is still so sucks
having flu rite now =/ hope dun affect my mood for bbq
shd get some rest now and enjoy tml =)
HOPE tml and next sat bbq TURNS OUT WELL!!!!

i miss late night chats wif nerd and shy =(

These are the days I will treasure
And these are the days I will remember

2009-04-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

time to update~~~~~~
been one week since i update
last week was 1st week of sch
in balestier ite and was a veri emo week for me hahas
didnt like the sch veri much
but classmates are cool =)
was in a veri bad mood for first week
hope tis week get better but it doesnt seems gd at all -.-
sch is a long journey for me so has to get up early
haiz.....has been slping at 2+ or 3 really nt enough slp
i jus nt use to slp early at all and
has to wak up at 6++ so i wound't be late for sch
nvm i will be a good kid for the 1st mth only lols
anyway i have been spend too much $$$
i nid a new job asap be4 i get really broke!!!
damm my shoulder are hurting again =((((
its asking to go rest again lik alarm clock lols
okies shd update again when i have the mood =)

i swear that i will earn lots of money
and buy my OWN HOUSE =)

全世界都停了電全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦

2009-04-11T01:21:00.000+08:00

time to update blog ZZZZzzzz
it is rotting lik me lols

im becoming more lazy since i quit my job lols

my last day was on stocktake day if i didnt rem wrong

which is on 3rd of april after tat was enjoying life hahas

let me recall wat happen recently

ytd 10/04/09

out wif H4F

meet up wif nana first

and went to queensway
bought a converse shoes which is veri simple =/

meet up wif hui and hx at bus stop

and we bus to clarke quay for ard 30min to 1hr o.O?

had fun in the bus~~~did u see a bus which rain be4 hahas

and pig brain leg in step by some uncle

poor pig brain~~~who ask u kip disturb 123 bus driver hahas

reach clarke quay, nana and hui bought their shoes

it reminds me of u O.O

took train to toa payoh to collect our jersey

jersey outcome was nt veri gd so lets nt talk abt it =)

nana nt ur fault so dun wry it is still cool wif our names =)

had mos burger and had lots of fun

laugh till i choke can lols

after tat went to burger king and slack

while slacking someone suggest goin west coast

and all of us was so on and agreed when it is 8pm already

train down to clementi and bus there

reach there change into our jersey

and took pictures lols walk and slack ard for awhile

ard 10+ we bus to jurong east

while walking to mrt station frm library

i told STUPID BRAIN smthing lols

nv thought i will ever tell anyone abt it =)

the 5th time and the fate ends.........

took train and went home.........

spend alot of time on train today

but we were all joking ard lik our house lols

FUN AND TIRED TODAY ENJOY ALOT =)

pictures of the day:

in a shop wif no owners!!!!

i tired to tak pics of raindrops but failed =/

heavy rain which cause bus to rain too hahas

moon at west coast lik lampost lols

BIRDBRAIN

STUPID BRAIN

NO BRIAN

PIGBRIAN

09/04/09

meet up wif faris at je popular

to pass present and cake to ah chai

reach but he was having break

so slack ard to wait for him to return

he came bak wish him and pass him the things

train to cwp to shop for present again lols

actually shd be meeting someone

but the person put me areoplane lols

nvm i always do tat hahas

so wanted to watch moive

but the Q at cwp is so long -.-

lik snake hahas so went to lot 1

reach lot 1 at 8pm and we bought tickets for 9+

so walk and slack ard till 9+ and went into cinema

watch FAST AND FURIOUS 4

cool~~~ PAUL WALKER =)

the show was ard 2hrs but nice show =)

end ard 11+ and went home

thx faris for accompany me so

u r nt BADMAN for one day hahas

and STUPID BADMAN did a lame logo

BADMAN + EMO MUNK lols

PAUL WALKER =)

08/04/09

woke up early in the morning

went to popular and pass present to yua hua

after tat went home and change

went to gombak and had breakfast wif wendy

after eating went to her house and slack

frm 10+ to ard 3 then we left to vivo

went to true fitness to ask somethings

becos of some stupid telemarketers lols

after tat went to eat at Carls Jr

we took a long time to find it hahas

walk ard for awhile and bus home

i fell asleep in the bus lols

okies i forgot abt the other days already

lols im having STM~~~~~

if i m nt wrong 01/04/09 and 05/04/09

went out wif sy and we watch The Shinjuku Incident

it last for 2 hrs and some parts so gross -.-

took by sy lols

and 03/04/09 after stocktake

went to toa payoh to meet h4f and kenett

had some much laughter and fun =)

okies end of recalling~~~i spend few hrs to recall -.-

11/04/09

went to lot 1 wif mum

wanted to tak lrt becos raining

end up waiting for bus

wait ard 15mins bus still havent cum

and the rain ard stop so end up walking there -.-
went to watsons first and passby SIAM's kictchen

and end up eating inside lols all thai food
order so much and eat till so bloated

cost ard 40+ for both of us -.-

wanted to pay but mum dun let me =(

after tat went to nutc and the living pahmarcy?

and i HATE THE STAFF THERE

if im nt wif my mum i will give u one tight slap!!!

customer service so sucks

*mum: i wan ask abt tis product.....

staff: im not sure

u sure knw how to use than buy wat!!!*

FUCK RITE!!!! my customer service oso better than u lors

anyway HAPPY DAY OUT WIF MUM hahas

we both laugh lik mad today to some jokes~~~~

recent outing have meet alot of ppl

let me name those i rem

gina,jiteing,hui juan,viven chia,jun xiong,edwin,fabian,yee cheak,karen

and some other but cant really rem~~~~

anyway been using vugular language recently =x

shd stop tis be4 it becomes a habit

and i shd nt be lazy already

sch is start on monday =/

having mood swing tis few days again =(

i tired to help them

but i guess it wasnt useful o.O?

jus hope tat everyone can be happy........

and ppl if u r asking me out

remind me cos i havs STM

i may forget i meeting u lols

are u willing to go through the storm

to c the rainbow................

2009-03-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

slept at 3 last night again
and woke up early @_@
my mum recieve a call frm balestier ite
they wan me to go tml wif my result slip O.O
hahas hope i can get in...wish me gd luck =)
ard noon went to gombak to meet nana and hx for lunch
and last min we decided to watch moive COMING SOON
quite a lame show??? the moive in the moive is so short!!!
but still worth watching hahas
ard 5+ went bak to gombak to tak my result slip
fall asleep till 10+ and meet hui for dinner at alif
today i meet all h3f but nt tgt hahas

hmm....do we have to lose smthing or someone be4 we know tat is important and start to cherish it o.O?
sometimes i really miss home =/
sometimes i miss how we quarrel for little things
but now we change
we start to sms, start to chat on msn, start trying to knw abt each other more o.O?
hahas sometimes when we lose somethings we gain other things back =)

i knw she doesnt lik want me to waste so much effort on them
but i still did =((((((((((((((((

as you see through life
you will see that there is so much more
that we dont understand
and the only thing we really know
is things dont always go the way we planned

2009-03-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

MUSIC SAVE MY SOUL =)))))
opps......i did it again =((((
i made her wry again my bad =((((
nvm tml i will eat for sure!!!!!
she knws it, i knws it, we all knws it
but we jus kept slience =/
lets hang on for 3yrs
i knw we can make it no matter wat
we jus have to kip holding on =))))

why humans are so selfish and lazy o.O?
isst so diffcult to lift up ur hand and pull open the door???
and isst so diffcult to walk jus afew more steps to walk outside instead of passing through our store o.O?
dun believe go observe
the most busy period of the day 6 - 8
the door will be wide open wif many ants walking through
and during closing they will jus say "i jus wan to walk to another end"
as if tat there is only one way road -.-
DUN UNDERSTAND!!!!! and i tink i dun nid to understand hahas
and those selfish one!!! cant u jus stand in other ppl shoes o.O?
so diffcult lik wan ur life???
customers always tink why i request tis and tat veri diffcult for u mehs
but if u stand in the shoes of service staff they oso nid to follow rules wat
service staff always tink tat customer is veri troublesome
but if u stand in the shoes of the customer they jus nid a small help frm us tat will help them alot
hahas isnt it contradictious
watever it it jus put urself in other ppl shoes

o.O why am i typing so much
im wide awake now hahas
and i have apply for my courses
i applied for Nitec Info-Communications Tech(Balestier)
and Higher Nitec Integrated Log Mgmt Simei
hope i get into balestier course =)))))

i knw everytime i get a call
i will fall deep to the bottom
but i will climb bak to the top
becos i knw there are many things
waiting for me to be done
i knw i will survive =))))

i'll do whatever it takes
to turn this around
i know what's at stake
and i know i've let you down

2009-03-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

slept late last night ard 2+
so was veri tired today
and thought i was late
but the DM was even later then me
lucky me lols
tried to keep myself awake early in the morning
but working in tis environment makes me boil
till im awake hahas cant stand it sometimes
but wat can be done it is work~~~~
ate 3rd shift which was 7.30 cool~~~
hahas was having fun in the store wif su wei and xiao ping
althought im the only one having break
lots of "inside" jokes hahas
i tink next time i request eat 7.30 better =p

i dun understand why u always wan spoil my day
why jus cant u understand
im nt blaming u but u are blaming me bak WTF
I HATE PICKING UP UR CALL
do u knw it taks alot of courage to pick up ur call
cos everytime after the call it will be NIGHTMARE for me
u make me lose temper to everyone
i nid to hold bak my tears and put a smile in front of my face
jus trying to aviod letting ppl knw and wry
pls leave me a way out!!!!! im really tired......

1 second in heaven but 1 hour in hell

2009-03-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

out wif h4f today
jus for dinner and slacking
and rest of the day resting
but my head still hurts =((((
i nid a right doctor to cure the illness lols
no pics for today cos i havent got hold of it
will upload when i get it
jus a few more days to end of march
and i havent get my application done =(

2009-03-15T13:52:00.000+08:00

IM DAMM DAMM PISS OFF

and i went MIA for bbq SORRY!!!

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day...
Would you make your mark
By mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late
To shoot for the stars,
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'cause you can't rewind
A moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
'cause the hands of time
Are never on your side

2009-03-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

ture friends is not meant by

begin tgt having neverending talks

but is begin tgt nt feeling awkward

even without talking =)

im too tired to explain

jus tak it is my fault

im willing to shoulder it

jus feeling weak to carry on

but i knw i will survive =)

2009-03-07T01:57:00.000+08:00

wow sunddenly feel lik blogging tis
i felt tat when a person is emo
it is becos they feel lonely.....
so im one too lols CHEER UP DUDES
i wish all human beings
to lead a healthy and happy life =)

Will you think that you’re all alone
when no one’s there to hold your hand?

2009-03-07T01:34:00.000+08:00

can anyone spot the difference in my blog
hahas i bet no~~~~cause gt one baka cannot find already
okies the difference is i remove the name RON
pls dun call be RON anymore
u can call me any other names but nt RON
but HAPPY 3 frens are allow no other ppl
THX!!!!!

i have the urge to read books O.O